Time Freeze ...

Life goes on even when people move on .. Close one's left behind will have to bear the brunt of it as there is no other option left ... But there is a feeling of Time freeze at the time of parting ... The times spent together flashes one by one ..sometimes get merged with each other ..and you are left dazed thinking what am I going to do ? Will we ever meet each other again ? You suddenly feel .. People whom you met day in and day out will not be there the next day .. IT comes as a terrible shock and it hits you with so much force that you are left shaken ....
This line of thinking started with my room mate's farewell party yesterday night ... In that noise & din, I was suspended for some time in all those time freezes which I have had with her ..
The late night talks we have had.. the sunrises we have seen... the joy we have had while cooking together (she is supposed to be our master chef)... the general discussions we have had of concepts & people .. the different opinions that we have had ..yet the rapport we have found ...

At that moment , I suddenly realised with so much clarity that she is not going to be there with me after 3 days ...and that I will be left with only the time freezes in my hand...

We generally hear that people are leaving and it seems a far off thing as far as our friends are concerned ....but the first time somebody close leaves and you are damn sure that they are not going to return or atleast not the same way as you are used to... you get your first 'quake'..

After the person leaves ..if you are staying at the same place .. you will be reminded of each and every small thing - good & the bad ones too - that you had associated & taken for granted with that person ... I guess it will be painful to start with .. but as time goes by your senses will be dulled & you will mostly have memories of only the good old times... and a wistful longing 'those were good times'...

I have heard people saying 'That is why we say do not get involved with anybody that much'
It maybe a wise advise .. But then how do you live your life if you do not get involved ...I feel you have merely existed if you have never had attachments with anybody ....Life is a ride .. it may be fun at most times ...but with definite downs .. If we do not go down then where is the joy of coming up again ? I for one thing would not know how to be placid & calm all the time ...
And in the case of my room mate I will derive consolation from my Time Freezes with her - both the literal & virtual ones !!!
Signing off
Sundari

Comments

Anonymous said…
Very True sundari.It is the 4th one to part from the Gang of 7 gals..The feel this time wud be lil more intense as we had been closer since last few months..

Anyways we can still hope to stay close to each other...thanks to the lotus notes!!!!
3:46 AM
Anonymous said…
asshhhhaaaa tha......
4:20 AM
Anonymous said…
Sundari ...My dear Roommate ...Whatever u said is true ..but things move on like this...wherever we go...we always have certain friends for us inspite of the distance and that is what true frienship is ..and am sure we'll be as close as we are now even after few years ...But what we'll miss is our late night talks ...sunrise talks ....
4:56 AM
Anonymous said…
hello,

I understand that you people had a great time together...

you all are welcome to our house anytime and share the great memoirs with us..

Surely we all can meet once in bombay after all of u enter next step in life..

Malar and me would be more happy if you all make it to marriage....

have fun,
Regards,
Raja
5:03 AM
Sundari said…
To Malar & Raja...

Thanks a lot for commenting in this special post ..both of u .. felt really nice ..

Yeah Nila.. i will miss those talks so much ...Hope u finally name ur daughter as Nila as u wanted ..

Ofcourse Raja.. how can Malar enter into that beautiful threshold without us to share it with.. we are coming to the Wedding !!

Hope we do meet regularly in the years to come !!
5:19 AM
Anonymous said…
Surely we can meet regularly.

you know the world is small, with so much means of communication, we are always connected..

only thing is we loose the personal touch... but thats how life is....
5:48 AM
Anonymous said…
reminds me of primary school engish lesson...abt a fresh coins stamped out of a mint...journey of the fresh coins , their view of older coins...etc. that was way back in 3rd std i guess! was 2 good a lesson 2 b 4goten

changes are very good things...but for them we wud b bored n miserable...

ks
3:24 AM
Sundari said…
Thanks KS for finally posting ur comment on the blog site itself
2:57 AM
Ar Ar Ar Arrrrr said…
Agree with you...
I had a similar feeling when my roomies left for Hyderabad and I Was left only with memories...good ones which we guys shared.

Anyway, time is a healer...find out new bunch of friends, gradually you will forget the sad part...
6:31 PM
Anonymous said…
this was fantastic sundari!
thats how we felt when we parted...hai na???
jsut fantastic...this is...guess..who am i????..Its me....the person who ahs been promising you to update you with my comments on ur blogs for the past few months...have u guessed me???ok then...mail me ..??????
11:37 AM
Sundari said…
hi arz00

i guess this is ur first time in my blog.. thanks for commenting ...

yeah life goes on ... but it sure hurts a lot when ur roommate leaves u ...
4:35 AM
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