Transition

...I just wanted to let you know that I made it home. The journey wasn't an easy one, but it didn't take too long...for I had followed a promise... Everything is so pretty here, so white, so fresh and new. I wish that you could close your eyes and that you could see it too. He is taking care of me... I'm in the shelter of His hands Here there is no sadness, no sorrow, and no pain. Here there is no crying and I'll never hurt again.... But... I need to spread my wings again.... ..leave the warmth of his hands... ..leave the beauty here... To yet another faraway land.... To yet another promise....

This is a sudden post brought on by some small incidents that keep affecting me & I believe some others too... At the Indira Gandhi airport a week back (the day I returned from Trichy), I was standing in line for the Prepaid Taxi. There was a long queue. When my turn came the guy at the counter suddenly got a call on his mobile. While I was waiting for him to finish it,a lady suddenly came at my side. She tried to push me aside & talk to the counter guy. I was irritated & asked her politely to stand in line. She did not respond but stopped pushing me. Nevertheless she stood where she was & did not move from there. Finally when I got hold of my receipt & came out of the queue,the lady stepped in.No amount of indignation from the other people behind her perturbed her & she had her way. Today I had attended the engagement of one of my friends.There was a buffet arranged for us. While I was helping myself to the delicacies one by one on my plate, a lady who was next...

Am at home now!!! And enjoying all the privileges that go with it!!! Eating as if I have not had a morsel to eat the past 4 months & sleeping to my heart's content...It is a wonder how you get to sleep so soundly at home with all the commotion happening around you (you will get an idea of what I am talking about if you have ever dealt with 2 shrieking kids around you) and don’t get a wink of sleep anywhere else with not even a whisper of wind to disturb you... But that is what Home is all about I guess... Feels great to be back!!! Went via Bangalore to Trichy this time …. Stayed with my brother & my ‘perimma/maasi’ for 2 days in Bangalore...Unlike Tamilnadu you can manage with Hindi or English in Bangalore… a cool place...literally & figuratively …went to a mall (yeah again…:-)) and roamed around.. Could not resist the book shop there …there was really a good collection of books … Got Bourne Supremacy (Aye!! the same thriller movie) by Robert Ludlum and Shashi Tharoor‘s...

Sunday - Nov 6th 12:30 pm It is a lazy Sunday afternoon and am half sitting and half lying down in the living room sofa of my PG house listening to some Hindi songs.. and day dreaming..There is a chill in the air even though it is in the middle of the afternoon which is a bit strange for me.. & it reminds me that I have not done my Winter shopping yet which people are claiming will almost kill us Southies who are not used to it... It feels totally relaxing to be like this... a state wherein you are not bothered by anything ... no cases .. no irate PM trying to make your life miserable.. just the radio playing 'khajrare' the nth time.. never liked it that much to begin with .. but out of sheer repetition I have become used to it... But all cannot be peaceful in this perfect sunday .. I knew ...Yet again two of my PG mates are shouting at the maid & she is shouting back.. am seriously amazed at their lung power... 2 people vs 1 ... still the maid is giving equal competit...

Life has become hectic..either I am in the office working or at home sleeping... It has become very rare to meet even my room mates... But the work is exciting enough ..and does make me feel that I am finally a part of the world of Networking professionals.There is a long way to go in terms of learning ..But I feel that I have taken the first baby steps towards what I want to achieve... Apart from work there are other quality things that I feel very strongly for ... for example .. Books ... The times that I stay home are usually spent reading.. Reading has been the greatest passion in life so far... and it has been like that for quite some time.. Even though writing is my new love.. nothing can take away the pleasure of curling up in bed with a good book...& it is an added pleasure if you are the proud owner of the book...The most beautiful thing about financial independence I have realised is ..you can lay your hands on any book you want & buy it too without feeling guilty tha...

It is long since I wrote anything ...simply because of no access to a PC with Internet connection.. Then I thought I will just jot down in a piece of paper & then type it out later .. So here goes... After a series of encounters with the forces of nature which was making Mumbai literally a Water world.. we (my friend,philosopher & guide .. !she wouldnt settle for anything less than that! & myself) finally landed in the Indira Gandhi airport .. Delhi enveloped us in a warm embrace...err.. a bit too warm for my comfort .. After the relentless lashing of the rains in the window panes of the Indian Airlines flight in Chatrapati Shivaji Terminus .. the dry heat of the midday sun felt totally alien to us ... An Airport taxi took us to Gurgaon - the hub of so many MNCs & even more number of malls that people must have lost count by now.. By nightfall we were in the PG accommodation that a dear friend had taken pains to book for us.. I didnt know what to expect of a PG.. Apart ...

I have been trying to post something for the past 2 weeks .. but somehow I could not make it past the staring phase (where I sit staring at the blogger logo... trying to pull some coherent thought out of all the ones trying to claim priority in my head) not that there was nothing happening... Things have become all the more chaotic because I have accepted an offer of job outside Mumbai where I have been staying for the past two and a half years... With all the formalities almost done I am all set to uproot to yet another new place ... It is actually exciting to think that I will be visiting the captial city & places around that.. It is a big thing because before Mumbai I have never ventured north of Chennai .. it seems a really long way from home ... But I am not going to brood on all that for now ...will just thank my good luck and also wish sincerely that the good luck holds in the new place among new people.. Hmmmm... The Autumn has finally struck this leaf also ... Coming from...

Wish I were here - Andaman & Nicobar Islands 

When I was thinking how to write about the changes that have occurred in my life this time .. it suddenly struck me how apt my blog title "Transition" is .... atleast for now ... There have been so many transitions recently .. some were superficial & some were things that have run deep... like for instance the Farewell of my Bestest friend.. In my earlier post it was to bid 'adieu' to my room mate & close friend of 2 years ... I had gone to her marriage.. felt happy .. felt sad .. then came back to the same grind at office .... This week it was my bestest friend's turn to say bye ... He has been such a solid presence with all the timely advices, the kind words you want to hear , an infinitely big heart and as another friend had described once "a sample of the extinct species of a good man from a different era"... The kind of ideals that he upholds have to be experienced to be believed... And this moocho man will be blushing to his ro...

Life goes on even when people move on .. Close one's left behind will have to bear the brunt of it as there is no other option left ... But there is a feeling of Time freeze at the time of parting ... The times spent together flashes one by one ..sometimes get merged with each other ..and you are left dazed thinking what am I going to do ? Will we ever meet each other again ? You suddenly feel .. People whom you met day in and day out will not be there the next day .. IT comes as a terrible shock and it hits you with so much force that you are left shaken .... This line of thinking started with my room mate's farewell party yesterday night ... In that noise & din, I was suspended for some time in all those time freezes which I have had with her .. The late night talks we have had.. the sunrises we have seen... the joy we have had while cooking together (she is supposed to be our master chef)... the general discussions we have had of concepts & people .. the different o...

It was the first or rather the 2nd Rajnikanth movie for me to watch in theatre.. I do not know what I had expected to see.. But somehow it beat all the expectations I had .. I like him somehow.... those eyes of his have captured thousands of Tamil people's hearts (yeah.. not an exaggeration) ..and even though am not a fanatic of his movies.. I like him... It is his latest - ' Chandramukhi ' & I had watched it along with some of my friends in Matunga ..It was a different experience seeing a Rajnikanth movie in Mumbai ... But before u read on I just want to write a disclaimer ' The views expressed here are not intended to hurt anybody's taste . It is solely intended as a topic for discussion' .. Thanks.. now read.. Rajini is not that good an actor.. he fails miserably in sentimental scenes... he doesnt know to dance or atleast u can say that his dance is not graceful ... he doesnt pronounce Tamil the way it is supposed to be ...he started out his career as a v...

Holi for the last 2 years in Mumbai has meant running around looking scary with all sorts of colours on our faces in & around the lanes of Lodhivali Township ... Even after we were chucked out of the Township after a year we went back last year to enjoy Holi there & it was a day to remember .... This third Holi will be remembered for a different kind of enjoyment.... It had been quite some time that we had gone anywhere .. that we felt we should not miss the consecutive holidays that we were getting ... So there we were cleaning up our travel bags for a trip to Ganpatipule - described as a quaint village of sorts with a white sand beach & a beautiful Swayambhu Ganpati temple in all the websites that I saw... We were 15 in all.. two in bike.. 5 in one car & 8 of us in another hired Qualis.... The onward journey was real fun ... All of us were in high spirits .... we were playing Anthakshari the whole time ...and it was unadulterated fun... the stops that we made for chai...

Most people believe friendships are easily formed when you are young .. True..... That is when you are not weighed down by most worries.. But I have not had a big friendship circle in school or college.... I hardly thought that a working environment was conducive to a lasting friendship....But it became true in my case...It is really amazing how close u can become with people whom you have never even met before... We met in a conference room ... All eagerly waiting to be placed in a hifi company .. trying to show that each one was better than the other... But all of us were so full of good will towards each other that when we met each other again after being placed .. there was a feeling that wherever we go we will never be alone... It was 7 of us girls and 3 guys .... from Chennai .. travelling to big bad Mumbai .... I never got close with the guys ... they were good.. still there was never any affinity with them... It was quite the opposite with the girls... We became so close in th...

Valentine's day has come and gone !! It was just another day A normal day with only one thing that kept you going on.. Work ... And one wonders ..... Does it really make any difference to the state of ur heart ? Do people who were 'oh so normal' just the day before suddenly fall in love with each other that day ? Does Valentine Magic really work ? For the past 24 odd years ( actually the last 6 years - i.e 'Valentine Day' aware years)... I have been waiting for something interesting to happen every Feb 14th... Now do not get me wrong.. I was waiting just for anything interesting to happen .. like some guy proposing to my friend/ getting accepted/ or a girl proposing for a change .. or just any kind of fairy tale to happen just once in life on that day ..U know .. the missing of heartbeats.. the quickening of pulses ... that kind of thing... I remember the anticipation with which we used to come to college on that day (or was it just from my part...?? I dont know ......

Saw or rather felt ' Black ' yesterday.....It was a soul awakening experience .... I became so one with the movie that I felt somewhat disoriented when I came out of the hall... and from then my hand has been itching to write about it ... I do not know if I can do justice to the beautiful movie .. But I am definitely going to try !! Truely one of the finest creations in celluloid..... Each and every scene comes out & captures your heart.... It tugs at your emotions and pulls you into a time frame of beauty where * a teacher goes beyond the call of duty and helps a soul lost in darkness to 'feel' light and gives a new meaning to the word ' Black'... * a blind young woman so dedicated not to give up that she struggles twelve years to get her bachelor's degree... a bold woman who breaks chains.. the visible & the not so visible ones... to liberate her teacher from his disease... * a cute & normal sister who grows out of her insecuritie...

Have u ever felt the sickening feeling of loneliness ? Family and friends do exist .. some special ones too... But still you feel that deep deep pit in front of you beckoning to you ... Camouflaging itself like a cushion.. trying to ensnare you into it... Lulling you into a feeling that it is Independence.. promising you all the comforts .. warmth that you could ask for .. Only to pull you into nothingness... Have u ever felt the need to run fast and hide somewhere ? away from all the probing eyes.. away from the shadows chasing you Something keeps telling u to never look back ... out of the fear that the one chasing you is yourself.... You never need to run so fast if it was someone else.. Have you ever felt the need to cry out aloud ? There are a lot of appearances you carry around .. The sweet smiling faces you give are just another mask that you put over yourself.... 'This is a Transition phase.. things get better '.. people say... Eve...

Tsunami has unleashed its insane power .. and people are still trying to pick up the remnants of their scattered lives... We were heading towards Elephanta caves that very same day.. blissfully unaware of the quake that had happened in the morning .. When somebody said there had been an earthquake in Chennai it was with disbelief that I had called my sister who is put up there... She told me all was well except for the fact that the sea had come into the road... Even then the enormity dint strike us.. It was really early then for us to speculate... Went to Elephanta.. took pictures .. did the usual shopping stuff..and came back... And then in the evening we came to know that 3000 people were dead in Tamil Nadu alone.... All of us sitting there in that Mumbai Local were shocked and some of us started to call friends in Chennai frantically..... With every growing minute we became more and more shocked by the news we were getting about casualties in Indonesia, Sri Lanka , Th...